Even though I could not see Aurora or the Chicago audience, it felt intimate. I imagined what the audience looked like, how they were sitting, and what motions they made when they were asked to do so. I wonder if they thought about the New York audience, and if they didn't, our sounds reminded them to. And even though I know Aurora the best, I could not imagine her or the movements she made. I can imagine how she moves naturally, but I do not know how she moves when she is moving with my moves. I wonder what she wore. When I told my mom about this performance, she said, "Aurora, the one with the tights?" I wonder if my mom also remembers Aurora's tattoo, it was hard to miss in that piece.
Tonight was really nice. I am really pleased with what went on, especially that which I did not see.
Today I finally put into words a habit I have. I realized that I usually understand in my body before my mind and sometimes I have difficulty trying to put into words that which is mostly in my body. I think when I am tired and/or stressed the body to mind process slows. Often when I try to put into words that which I feel, and don't yet understand in the mind, I cry. It is not that I am sad, it is that I feel pressure in my body and in my mind. I am not good at giving definitive answers in words.